Posted by Racer on December 29, 2007, at 1:44:35
In reply to Re: Banned from PHP » Phillipa, posted by dancinbillie on December 22, 2007, at 13:14:30
What about having someone on your treatment team contact the hospital about it? If they think having someone from the program -- or even XX herself -- attend one or more of your sessions to try to help process what happened, maybe if they approached the hospital program management, they could get somewhere with it.
Here's what I've learned, for myself, about this: it has taken a number of years to get over what happened to me, and I still have trouble related to it at times. Working with a good therapist -- that is, a therapist who fits my needs at this time -- has helped a lot, mostly processing the trauma, and exploring how it recreated earlier experiences from my life. As a result of that work, I'm getting through a lot of childhood trauma as well as the psychological trauma induced by the agency in question. It's hard, and I hate that I'm not over it yet. In fact, it's hard not to blame myself -- still -- both for what happened and for not getting over it sooner. I'm also left with a good deal of residual distrust of doctors in general, which is particuarly difficult to deal with.
My advice, based on my own experience, is to focus on your own recovery -- and not on working anything out with the people involved with the PHP. Most likely, they won't agree to engage in your treatment. That's unfortunate, since it might help speed your recovery, but it's also true. For one thing, if they agree to be part of your treatment, they risk a level of liability which I'm sure they'd like to avoid. More to the point, though, thanks to liability issues, NO ONE can say what you need to hear right now -- "I'm sorry." Even if they did show up, you'd be much more likely to hear something more like, "Gee, it's unfortunate that you crossed a line," and hearing that won't do you much good. I know that I heard something similar, which made me feel even more impotent in my hurt and rage. That's not going to do much for your healing, and your healing is what this is about now.
I'm sorry if this is only half coherent. Today has been rough for me, and I just can't seem to express myself very well.
Good luck.
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