Posted by rskontos on December 23, 2007, at 14:18:44
In reply to Re: The best Christmas present- a 'good fit'!, posted by Wittgenstein on December 23, 2007, at 12:58:40
He didn't use fix that is my word, I have to think about his word, I am not sure, healed, whole, I don't remember now. This is my disjointed memory thing. I like fixed for now. I feel broke. So fix it is. I remember the thread earlier on this and I have settled on fixed. But I could say filled because for now I feel empty, I called my self an empty vessel so to think of myself as filled is comforting. I have purposedly emptied myself so no one can hurt me. So to feel ok with allowing myself to fill back up with feelings would be nice.
Thanks Witti, your response means alot.... and yes for me to be in control would be nice. The later traumas does feel like a surprise because I guess I just accept everything that comes my way. Amazed to be recognised. And to have it point out to me is huge. To be validated is huge. To everyone in my head. I didn't know any of this. And to know I should have felt relief when my mom died and I didn't. That is something to think about too. It all is a wow. Remarkable all for a 2.5 session. And for someone to talk that long to me.......another wow......
I am glad you are doing well. I am sorry you are a bit down. We are having pretty snow flurries now. All of our snow melted since it got up to 50 yesterday. Bummer. But today the snow flurries are pretty. I still dont like to leave me house and my daughter asked me to go somewhere with her. I guess I will force myself. Unless I can get my H to go.Yes the holidays are triggers. I am only glad none of our families will be here. I wouldn't mind friends. But they like their familes unlike me. LOL
Hang in my friend. Thanks for the luck on the 26th and you have a lovely Christmas too.
What type of dogs. I just watched the Dog Whisperer. I like to watch it. I have two Rat Terriers. They are small but fierce.
Take care, rsk
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