Posted by Daisym on November 27, 2007, at 22:40:04
In reply to and what if, posted by Muffled on November 27, 2007, at 21:29:03
My therapist would say it is OK to talk about stuff in parts and pieces. You can talk from that place - or you can narrate - like watching a TV screen and telling what you are seeing. I started out hating all the different ages and things I was feeling. Now I am more compassionate, but not always. And I struggle and struggle with feeling young and regressed - I want to own all this crud - I just can't yet.
We've been working on a trigger from when I was 6. It is a very big deal my therapist says - and yet it isn't the "worst" thing that happened to me. So I'm struggling a lot. My vocabulary deserts me and I'm left with little kid words to describe adult acts. It makes me feel stupid.
But --
I'm telling. I'm telling "her" stories. I'm telling them angry and sad and with tears. I tell them flat and with no emotion. But I'm telling.
It is a relief to tell. Scary - terrifying - and a huge relief. I make my therapist promise all the time that he won't tell anyone else. He always does.
I think you should tell what you can, when you can.
I'm sorry - if I knew of another way - I promise I'd tell you. Believe me, I've looked for one. The only way out is through.
poster:Daisym
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