Posted by Muffled on November 5, 2007, at 11:57:53
In reply to Re: **STRONG TRIGGER***(suicide thougts) » muffled, posted by B2chica on November 5, 2007, at 10:46:15
> omg muffled i needed that! i'm sure this is going to happen to me! so now i have a good 'cover up'!
> thnx.*ya it worked! Dunno if it was the thot stopping, or that the embarssment caused me to dissociate to a better place!!!
I have a number of things I do.
If I am alone I grunt! Sorta with the effort of SHOVING the thot/part away.But the oddness of the sound brings me back.
Then there's the old head 'twitch'!
Then there's the less adaptive, punching something(but not to the point of damage) just enuf to hurt some, then I focus on the pain.
I 'babble', or CAREFULLY go on chat.
Sometimes I net surf, carefully.
Compose an email to T, and maybe send or not.
Phone T, or agonize over whether to phone T, spend time thinking of EXCUSE to phone T....then phone her, say my dumb thing...like 'what time did we say appt was?' and then hurriedly say 'bye'! even tho T is quite prepared to chat some w/me.
Manoman!!!!
The funniest thing of all is that to most people I may seem slightly odd, but not so bad!!!! LOL!
I sure put on a good show eh!!!
Take care B2, try to rmemeber you not alone in this and we can win.
I goto go,
I try to come back later.
M
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