Posted by muffled on October 4, 2007, at 15:56:10
In reply to Re: Different Take on Integration (long and *csa* » antigua3, posted by B2chica on October 4, 2007, at 13:44:00
B2C, first and formost I am honored how much you have shared with us. All you guys that been posting bout dissociation, thank you.
I think you doing all the right things B2C.
I kinda wish you could get on some seroquel or something cuz it sure helped me one time when I got kinda outta control.
Stress. Stress is HUGE for me as far as getting my head all messed....
The impulsive stuff is a little scarey....
Fortunately for me I tend to be very controlled and the few times I kinda got outta control a bit, it wasn't too bad.
But one time after a session, I have a part that gets ridiculously hyserical, and I chilled a bit, but then I thot I was OK, so I got on my bike...I was NOT OK, I almost rode in front of a car on purpose. It scared me. So I stopped longer and chilled awhile and just eventually walked and was eventually ok.
So I just want to also ask you to be careful B2.
I think if hosp is not an option, and the xanax worked, maybe its an option? You'd have to ask your T. I dunno what happens with switching when you on xanax.
I was stoned once when I was splitting some, and I can't remember, but I think the reactions were variable....so I dunno.
I just wish I could be there for you somehow, cuz I wouldn't be afraid, and I could be calm for you, and the mom in me could love your kids and help them to settle and be OK.
And Teen, she got so much anger :-(, but I bet under that anger she proly an OK kid. Proly even fun. Anger hurts :-(
I am trying so hard to figger how I reihn the kids in? I'm not sure. I think what Antigua wrote was good. I think its helped ALOT for me to have understanding of who is saying what, AND, that there is awareness of each another. I dunno how I did this? I think at first what my T taught me wasn't heard by the others, but now they seem to hear too. Its all so strange. I wish I could be moree helpful, I am rambling, trying to understand.
I think one thing that was hard for me to understand/accept(still is) is that these inner ones ARE kids. I kept trying to relate to them as an adult, I didn't treat them as the age they were. Once I did things got WAY better. So I guess say for eg. with Teen, maybe its good to understand that she IS, and she IS a teenager, and she's not bad, or evil, or nuts, she is just a kid, a REAL kid. She is HERSELF. And she counts just as much as any other kid. Her feelings are VALID. Just cuz there's not an actual physical teen body standing there doesn't mean she is any less real. SHE IS REAL. And she needs what ANY kid who is hurting needs.
Hmmmmm, seems this is important....I think it was huge for me to accept, truly fullyaccept my people.
I guess thats what I wanted to say, just took me awhile to say it.
M
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