Posted by sunnydays on August 13, 2007, at 9:51:07
In reply to Re: question ***suicide trigger? » sunnydays, posted by Poet on August 12, 2007, at 21:16:18
> My T says that my suidical thoughts are "fantasy" an escape route that I always have just in case things get to be too much.
**** I think that might be part of it for me too. I feel more comfortable having that as an option in the back of my head. I absolutely don't want to ever act on it, but there's something about just knowing I could that keeps me going, almost.
She just said this in our session last Thursday. When I told her that they are not fantasy she said something like "they are not reality unless you do it." Followed by "sweetie, I am not trying to bait you." She has called me dear once and awhile, but never sweetie. Talk about a way to stop my protests that its not fantasy.
**** I think I would pass out from happiness if my T ever called me sweetie. He won't do that, but sometimes he'll tease me and call me ma'am, which I like. And he has a way of saying my name that's absolutely wonderful. Thank you Poet.
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