Posted by llrrrpp on July 22, 2006, at 15:24:28
In reply to Re: hospitalization -- wishingstar » Jost, posted by wishingstar on July 17, 2006, at 12:37:44
> Thanks for the thoughts jost. I did get through the night (obviously) and I'm at work right now. I always feel a little better at work.. preschoolers are a natural anti-depressant I think.
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> I need to make another trip to the library. I checked out a few recently but have been trouble getting through more than a page or 2 without losing my concentration. It's really frustrating as I do really love to read, but it's just hard right now. I'm going to try to find some more attention-grabbing books and hopefully find something that will do it right now. Reading is always a good escape.Since reading is difficult for you right now (I've been there too- it's AWFUL) how about watching movies? You mention that you go to the mall a lot- maybe you can go to the movie theater too. It's a good place to stay safe for a couple of hours. It's plenty distracting- in a good way :)
I play with preschoolers too. I TOTALLY agree that they are a wonderful anti-depressant. If you're not too exhausted, can you work extra hours in the evening? baby-sitting? or volunteering to read stories to kids in the hospital, or teach swimming lessons at the pool?
I'm so sorry you're feeling so terribly. I was at this point a few months ago. It was terrifying. At one point I was terrified that my T would recommend hospitalization. A few weeks later, I was actually hoping that it would be presented to me as an option. I was really disappointed when T told me that if I went to the hospital I might be safe overnight or for a few days (that's how long such emergency hospitalizations usually last) but that it wouldn't help me get better. I was devastated. I just wanted the hurt to end. And now I find out that there is no easy way out. T actually told me "If you think you are depressed now, just wait until you're in the hospital". ugh. That was so cruel. Now I understand better. He was able to recognize that I was safe, even though I was hurting SO bad that I didn't recognize it myself.
If you need meds, perhaps paying out of pocket is not a bad option?
If you need to get away, there are much nicer destinations for your money than a psych ward. And the photos will be nicer too.
((((wishingstar))))
hang in there.
-ll
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