Posted by fairywings on September 29, 2005, at 22:21:21
I'm really depressed. My T had to cancel our appt. tonight 2 hours b4 our appt. I know there had to be a good reason, because he's been so good, and he did reschedule it, but I really needed to talk to him.
I guess it's good he cancelled because I had a terrible migraine, and I'm just depressed. I took some meds and went to bed. I've only slept 2 full nights out of the past 7, I've had a migraine the past 4 days, I have terrible tinnitus, I started school - I'm taking an online course, and everything is all screwed up, and I have a GYN problem that no one would understand - I'm seeing my GYN tomorrow - no STDs or anything like that.
Anyway, I was so upset when his office called I just wanted to cry, I wanted to just cancel all my future appts., like that would do my a H*ll of a lot of good! I felt like I was a stomping 4 year old. Then I thought about it, and thought how kind and patient he's been with me, and how stupid and immature I was being.
It's probably better that I'm seeing the GYN first, and that I'm not going with a migraine anyway, but now I know I won't share the stuff I was going to share tonight, and I'll be back to my gloom and doom.
What's wrong with me?! Why am I such a pessimist? Why am I such a freakin' baby? I'm going to bed to suck my freakin' thumb! Whaaa!
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