Posted by crushedout on September 27, 2005, at 12:30:12
In reply to Re: Intense session, posted by Tabitha on September 27, 2005, at 0:55:04
No, I can't. I remember getting held a lot, though, as a child. If anything, my parents loved me too much. My therapists have suggested that because there weren't clear boundaries between my mother and me, it might never have been about meeting *my* needs, because we were one and the same person and so I could not have needs of my own. This all sounds too abstract to me and doesn't help me understand this need I have right now. Or satisfy it. Or get rid of it.You can't just get rid of needs. Sometimes I want to so badly since I feel sure they will never be met. It's very confusing and sad and when I start writing about it, I start to cry, but I guess it must be something I should keep writing and talking about. I'm taking it on faith that someday it will get better if I keep working on this. Part of me thinks that nothing will actually make it better and so all this is a waste of time (and money).
Sorry, I just started writing and I got carred away. I better get back to work. Thanks to all who posted -- it's so helpful to read your posts but then I have to turn to something else because it's too painful.
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