Posted by crushedout on July 14, 2005, at 15:34:09
In reply to Re: I actually really, really, really want some lo, posted by Daisym on July 14, 2005, at 12:59:21
that's funny. i've been thinking about those monkey studies a lot lately, too. how i totally relate to the little monkeys clinging to the terry cloth mommies. how pathetic they looked! how adorable, too!pathetic and adorable. that's me.
i had therapy today and i tried telling my T about this post. i posted it on social last night at first and jyl wrote me back something really sweet and it made me cry and cry. i had a really hard time -- i just couldn't tell my t about the parts of the post that were about her. i was too embarrassed. i just printed it out (my post and jyl's) and i'm thinking about mailing it to her.
this is really confusing. i don't understand how i get this mommylove i need. i can't move on till i get it. how am i going to do that? i wish i was little and could sit on my t's lap, too, although i think that's actually more of a fantasy than a real desire.
i think you're right about it not really being about sex. the sexual aspects for me, are trying to make sure they need me, too. that's how i give back. what i need is love love love.
thanks daisy.
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