Posted by maggie1970 on June 23, 2005, at 12:41:34
In reply to Re: No, they don't. (Trigger warning), posted by spalding on June 22, 2005, at 16:24:45
Thank you all for sharing with me. So much. I feel a bit lost because when I was feeling very horrible, I called my counselor and left her my new number and she never called back. So I called again and cancelled my meeting with her today, because I want someone who will care, like your counselor who reacts with caring. She did call back after I cancelled and told me she didn't call back because she erased the message befreo taking down the number because she thought it was the number she had. I believe her, but feel she should have taken it down, and more than that, at our last session, she was yawning, ended early, and asked if I wanted to meet in two weeks, not one. All in all, I left the session feeling that she hadn't been listening and wanted to hurry through, and felt like I needed to be more interesting next time. She also says "ahuh" before I'm finished my sentences, which I understand she's trying to sound as though she's really listening, but it's too fast, so doesn't seem genuine. I don't know if I'm giving in too easy. I'm not sure if I would feel that she would genuinely care though. I almost feel like I am a failure if I give in too fast on her, like I failed another one. Does anyone else ever feel that way? I feel like finding a counselor is like finding a best friend or SO. It must be genuine. Or am I living in a fantasy? Anyway, thank you all for writing and sharing. This has been one of the toughest weeks of my life. I've never felt so dark.
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