Posted by Susan47 on May 24, 2005, at 23:21:32
In reply to Re: Love with therapist: Anger, *trigger* » Susan47, posted by pinkeye on May 24, 2005, at 19:38:40
Thanks for the advice Pinkeye. That's what this is all about, for me, it's about getting over the anger and the feelings of worthlessness, of having something wrong with me because idiot men walked all over me all my life, feeling ruined because I can't be feeling a worthy woman. Did you assume I think he's attracted to me personally? That I think there might be something really attractive about me that would make him want somebody like me? Because I don't think I've ever said that. I think he's just a man. A male who doesn't understand that every female isn't bursting with self-confidence and ego around her looks. Someone like me who tries very hard not to be the girl daddy loved to hate, who hated her all his life and still does. But loves me too, he loves me but I can't love him, and I was completely turned off by the sight of him naked, my father was a horror, a walking horror show for me.
I know you don't understand, I read it in your post. And that's okay. A lot of people don't get it. Fortunately for them, they're not me :)
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