Posted by daisym on April 8, 2005, at 0:04:43
In reply to Re: talking about it » daisym, posted by mair on April 7, 2005, at 21:16:10
Mair,
I'm not on medications, except for sleeping. I tried an anti-anxiety med but it made me really depressed. Interesting that you brought this up, I called pdoc today to talk about ADs again. My therapist is encouraging this but very carefully. Last time I went to pdoc I got so upset and we both are very aware I can't take much more upset. She said she can't do anything until she sees me next week and she also wants to talk to my therapist. He said fine, he would talk to her, if it was OK with me, and I gave my consent but then fell apart in his office again. What is it about her that freaks me so badly?
He thinks I need help to get out of this hole. I'm terrified that the medications are essentially being used to shut me (little daisy) up. And I told him that I was afraid she would tell him that the answer is to cut back contact with me, force me to be strong on my own again. He said she can't tell him how we should do therapy together. He promised not to pull away.
*sigh* It is all so complicated and I'm so tired. It feels like a really long time until Monday. I wish Babble didn't get so quiet over the weekends.
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