Posted by Poet on April 4, 2005, at 18:51:18
The last few weeks I have been more and more afraid of my T at each session.
It's not fear of abandonment, I do believe her that she will "walk with me in the darkness, walk with me through hell."
I've just been handing her my scribbled notes as I walk out the door. The next session she starts off with them and I tell her I don't want to talk about that.
She said I'm like a little kid, playing catch me if you can and peek-a-boo. It's okay that I feel like a child, that it's a part of me that is so scared of a relationship that it has to test it out.
She thinks that I am so afraid that I am a therapy failure that I don't realize that I am doing everything right. Including catch me if you can and peek-a-boo.
I am less afraid of her since she said that I am doing therapy right, but I am still more afraid of her than I was six months ago. Or 2 years ago.
Poet
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