Posted by Elle2021 on January 4, 2004, at 9:54:38
In reply to Re: I'm in the mood to SI simple because your near me » Elle2021, posted by Dinah on January 4, 2004, at 9:13:44
> Is that what happened with this person?
Well, I guess it wasn't just sitting next to the person. It was their entire attitude and the way they treated me and other people. Mix that with past experiences I have had with this person, and it's a recipe for SI. I think I did a good job fighting the urge, cause I didn't cut myself this time. I guess this person just exudes anxiety and unhappiness, and when I am around them, they have this way of making me feel useless, and hopeless reagarding my mental health. It's like first they can't recognize anything is wrong is wrong with me. And then five minutes later it's, "When is your next appointment with your doctor?" Then complete denial anything was ever wrong to begin with. It's just back and fourth. Sometimes other people's unhappy emotions and moods strongly effect mine. I can't feel decent if someone around me is having a breakdown and they are taking it out on me. Typically, I go ahead and have my own breakdown. Other times I completely dissociate from the things going on around me. If I don't recognize them, then for me they aren't there. If that makes any sense. And this person has a way of making comments directed about my use of medication to really hurt my feelings. Such as, "Well, I can see you haven't taken your medication today." Or, if I'm in a good mood, it's, "Well, I see you have doped yourself up again, what did you take this time?" I can't win. If I take my meds like I'm supposed to, then I'm a drug addict, if I don't take them I get the old, "Take something, we can't stand you." Ugh.
Elle
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