Posted by B2chica on March 19, 2016, at 21:43:21
In reply to Re: Tricyclics and bipolar depression *Trigger* » B2chica, posted by SLS on March 19, 2016, at 16:41:17
i think my last pdoc has thoroughly quashed my hope...the small tinder of hope i have left is this new pdoc. he has been with me (a bit off and on) since my dx back in 2003. he is highly intelligent.
but when i sat in my last meeting i had a sense of him perplexed and not sure how anything can really help right now... of course he didnt say that. and to be honest i need to put out there that if there is any pdoc in the nation that can help me...it is this dear one. he is not afraid of medications and not afriad to do 'off label' etc. and i am grateful to him... my heart just dropped alittle at his silence and expression of concern on how to move.i do feel alone, but not in the normal sense with my depression isolating from others. i feel alone in that no one seems to kno2 how to treat me, and in the mean time even waiting that week for the next appt where i clutch despearately to a glimmer of hope, is hell. even one day...today feels like it was about 2 and half days of living sh*t.
but right now, right here. my babies are in bed. even my DH went to bed. me alone time on laptop. i am writing a short fiction novel and have pressured myself as my timelines are getting messed up due to my sickness.
but i digress, that is another diatribe.again, with graciousness, thank you for the help.
b2but i will remember suggestions with adding to and lowering pristiq.
thnx u
"What is madness, but nobility of soul at odds with circumstance.
The day is on Fire, and i know the purity of pure despair."
Theodore Roethke
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