Posted by baseball55 on August 7, 2015, at 19:15:22
I don't understand you, lamadge. Instead of writing 20 cryptic notes, could you try writing a longer note explaining your thoughts on meds, therapy, changing, recovering. I'm not being hostile, I just really don't get where you are coming from. You seem to want to start fights with Scott and others, and I don't know why.
For myself (so you know where I am coming from), I have suffered for the last 7 years from severe depression. I have been hospitalized over and over with SI and made two suicide attempts that I barely survived. I take parnate at a normal dose (though low for this forum - 40mg) and it helps me with few side effects. Last year, I began taking ability PRN. Abilify always helped and quickly, but made me gain weight, and quickly. I now take it when the parnate doesn't hold me and I start sliding into intense SI. I take it for no more than a week. I also take lamictal. Not sure why, but it has not sx for me.
I see a DBT therapist once a week and have for 4 years. I saw a dynamic therapist weekly for 8 years. I now see him every 5-6 weeks (he is my psychiatrist). I believe in therapy strongly. I believe in finding support networks. I was drug and alcohol addicted and am very involved in AA. That helps a lot. I believe in trying to exercise, socialize, work, etc to find meaning and pleasure in life. But I also know from experience, that severe depression makes these things nearly impossible when you are living through it.
I have many close friends through recovery groups. They have seen me in the depths of depression and tried to help - we'll go for a walk, coffee, lunch. It always ends with their saying - do you need to be in a hospital? Can you call your therapist/psychiatrist? When I am depressed, they are way out of their league. It's too much for me and too much for others. I need help. Not necessarily meds, but help with DBT skills, hospitalization to keep me safe.
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