Posted by klein on April 27, 2014, at 9:29:26
In reply to To stand it, posted by Beckett on April 25, 2014, at 17:46:28
> I am terrified of another depression. I have more slow days. My brain doesn't work. Think of Monty Python's Gumbys--my brain hurts. What hurts is that there are things I would love to do--raise my child, my art. But I can't, which seems absurd, but there it is. There are two speeds, a painful, pressured go, and slug slow. My brain doesn't work, and the body is lethargic. I can't think, and to look at colors,one of the greatest pleasures, hurts. It all hurts right now, thinking of what I would like to do, and all the things I have missed out on, all the things that I won't have done because I am getting older and can't kid myself that I will be magically 'better'. My house is a wreck, a real wreck, and my husband, more than ever increasingly takes more on. Last time, I managed to do the basics but not this time. I don't care enough to get things done, and I feel very ashamed. Because of my experience, I believe medication holds little hope. I hate the way antidepressants make me feel and cycle. Yet it's been a number of years since I have tried them, and I guess they might be in my future if things don't eventually improve. I have tried nearly every anticonvulsant used, including now the gold standard lamictal. I know this sounds like self-pity, and it is. I don't know how I will stand it if I continue to go down further.
Hi Beckett,
This might be a faux pas because I don't know you. Have you ever done therapy? Or have you considered it?
Sounds like some of your symptoms can be treated chemically. The fact that, say, Lamictal didn't work the last time doesn't mean it couldn't work now cos our brain chemistry changes over time.
But I get the feeling that, based on some of the stuff you're saying, some form of therapy could really help you. If you need help in this area, please let me know.
Be well.
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