Posted by 4WD on October 2, 2012, at 19:10:26
In reply to Depression or existential despair? So lost..., posted by uncouth on September 23, 2009, at 18:55:14
I have to think more before answering fully but I want you to know you are not alone in your thoughts, especially about God. I too despair of ever trusting Him fully and I wonder sometimes if He means to teach me to by taking away absolutely every/any hope I have or have had of making it myself-like if he takes all but my very life I will finally have to trust Him or die. And as much as I am hurting, tI don't want to die. Not really. And I don't think you do either. Not really. I want to escape and it often feels like that's the only way too but when I reached the suicide note point in January, 2007, I called my pdoc instead at the last minute instead. And you are writing here.
As I said, I want to think more but my heart guess out to you.
Marsha
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