Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on June 21, 2012, at 23:29:31
there is not alot of people who read this stuff...maybe some person googling a topic and a dr-bob.org would come up but seriously I've got to find another website to start posting about my medical issues because there's not many awnsers here...there's alot of critism here and no one realizes that I'm looking for a solution for my issues that prevent me from living the life I should live.... just please hear me....if you could find anything that could awnser this question....I digest medications both under my tongue and swallowing it and it has no effect at all its like my body is resistant to alot of stuff....there's got to be an awnser and everytime I post here I get critized for using methamphetamine and that I suffer from unability to expierience pleasure...which is true....but its a result of my failure of mental function to finction correctly, which was present before all this....it just grew worse.
My mind is sluggish and I feel like i'm deterating in this condition...the only time I'm deterimined to diligently seek awnsers is when methamphetamine is used, and its too harsh on my mind to use it regulary...
I'm in a numb mindstate right now because I don't want to feel the pain of impending abandonment, the vary people who told me they would be right by my side left, and they acted like they never even said any of their flattering encouragement...people at NA insult me for a something that I can simply not help...my scattered thought process...I have to be ready for even my best friend to leave me because this has happened repeatedly over and over again over the years....it just comes in diffrent circumstances. This is why I extremly hate flattery....most of this was my own doing for not having the correct-enthusatic manner to be envolved with people and some of these symptoms are signs, of schizophenia...I do get into a altered state when using stimulants of hearing the dark world of spirits, and resort my problems to them. But right now and the past couple weeks I've had extremely low dopamine levels, poor motor cordination, slow comeback comments to friends...and basically isolation expect for work.
I was diagnosed with Asperger's 4 years ago.. which is mild form of autism and I hide this from alot of people because once they think your autitic..its a catagory label of being mentally incompetant, i can never deal with fact that I'm autistic, i would rather be dead and forgotten like I never existed before I accepted that label.
Anyways, just if anyone could find another medical website that is similar to this... would be great...but what I ask please is to find out whats causing these medication to not work at all and these are potent medications too...
thank you for time, and thank you for reading friend....
rj
I am not a scholar but I do understand distress.
Medications:
Prozac 60mg
Zyprexa 20mg
Lamictal 50mg
Clonodine .1mg X 3
Nuvigil 250mg
poster:rjlockhart04-08
thread:1020030
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