Posted by g_g_g_unit on January 2, 2012, at 5:56:29
In reply to Re: overly emotional » g_g_g_unit, posted by Phidippus on January 1, 2012, at 20:11:01
> >Do you just try to keep your elders appeased, at >all costs, so you have somewhere to live?
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> Your parents seem to have a hard time understanding your illness. Maybe the best thing to do right now is keep it to yourself. That sounds awful, but maybe they're just not readyI don't think they'll ever be ready. And that would be fine with me. But I find the constant need to keep up appearances tiring. I can't even hide out in my room without having psychiatric services called.
> >What do you do with all that residual anger and >hatred?
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> Sublimate it. Write.Hmm, I've never trusted the journelling-process for some reason, but maybe I'll give it a shot.
> >Am I missing something about my own culpability >here?
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> What do you think you are at fault for?I don't know. Because I'm never allowed to speak out against my parents in the first place, I feel like I tend to bear grudges against them for inordinate periods of time.
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> >And why am I feeling, if anything, more anxious >and emotionally reactive on Lexapro (i.e. crying >at the slightest affront from my parents)?
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> It may not be the Lexapro. Stop worrying about every little change medications may make to your psyche.To be honest, I find the way you have me pegged as some kind of hypochondriac kind of frustrating. I was familiar with the effects Lexapro had at 10 and 15mg; it induced apathy, but also diminished my physical anxiety rather effectively, and kept my mood flat-yet-even. At over a month on 20mg, I have seen zero anxiolysis or mood stabilization, and when you're as anxious as I am on a day-to-day basis - not to mention having spent so long seeking out effective treatment - obviously I'm going to question why. If the Valium withdrawal "isn't a consideration", then there can be no other explanation.
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> Stay on track with the Lexapro. Remember, your target dose is 40 mg. With the level of your anxiety, I think your going to want to look at AAPs once your up on your Lexapro.
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> You really need to start getting more aggressive with treating your OCD. It should not disable you.
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> Eric
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