Posted by B2chica on August 17, 2011, at 15:22:09
In reply to Maybe this is as good as it gets..., posted by mellow on August 12, 2011, at 22:46:27
i cant stop reading your post.
every couple days i have to read it again.i keep reading the header...Maybe this is as good as it gets.
right now i cant help but believe this.
life is good for me. a good job, a decent husband, amazing kids...
but i cant help but feel this hole in my chest where something used to be...and i dont know what, or how to get it back. except to extinguish. maybe then i will feel whole.
unfortunately even with this, there is no guarantee.why cant i feel joy, for longer than 'in the moment'
i just want to enjoy my babies.
i want to be more than an 2-dimentional icon to them.the question is...if i switch meds. i might get worse, or suffer life altering side-effects. Thinking only that i should have left "well-enough" alone...
well-enough.
am i there?b2c.
poster:B2chica
thread:993599
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20110809/msgs/994115.html