Posted by violette on August 21, 2010, at 10:31:47
In reply to Re: strange anxiety sensation » violette, posted by g_g_g_unit on August 21, 2010, at 10:09:34
Hey,
I was also in a different country when it happened and the psychiatrist there dx'd me with 'adjustment disorder'. It's really odd because when I was younger, always loved change and did all sorts of things....yes, it is horrible!! I think the whole adjustment disorder dx is really a result of feeling a sense of 'loss of control'...and that's how it's related to the OCD.
After being in psychoanlytic therapy, I found there was something unconscious involved-it was seperation from my child-but mostly how it related to the loss of control (being in a different country I could not help him with something)...but related to my own attachment issues too.
At the risk of sounding like a broken record (which is one reason I don't come here often anymore), I think psychoanalytic therapy (psychodynamic therapy) is the only thing that can help you long term. From everything we talked about, I think you have an attachment issue. I have seen commonalities with your symptoms/traits that I can totally relate to. It's, at least in part, a result from having a narcissistic mother. That's only my guess and we've spoken about this before.
I'd encourage you to read about object relations; particularly 'engulfment' feeling 'invaded' by your mother..and see if anything clicks. Please do not read any of it when you are feeling highly anxious!!
Anyway, my anxiety melts away in psychodynamic therapy when my therapist and I identify and discuss the unconcscious fears behind the anxiety. And I'd encourage you to get a psychoanalyst who is also a psychiatrist.
Despite what you read/hear, CBT therapy is NOT the best therapy for your mental health issues, imo. It might help in the short-term, but it might prolong your recovery too. Psychoanalysts are relational; it's through the transference feelings in the relationship-feelings similar to how you felt growing up-that you can get better.
Good luck :)
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