what to do?

Posted by Hunk20 on June 13, 2010, at 15:10:43

In reply to Re: The two 'psychoses' i had » Hunk20, posted by violette on June 12, 2010, at 15:04:37

i dont know what to do.. just leaving feels wrong. Somehow i have to grow in here until the people let me go by themselves..
I change my mind hourly. They say they wanna help me to go back to the states.. but my mom manipulated me here in the first place.
She called me back by saying "if you dont come immediately there wont be help for you anymore"
Then i showed her my inner child, my true self and she said im crazy.
The next morning i woke up and two people from the ambulance are infront of my bed asking me questions.
They left again by themselves.. i called them and went voluntary because in my eyes my mom is crazy. I did it because i wanted to show my parents that i am more healthy then they are.
Now im stuck in here dont know what to do.. i feel worse and lost alot of the happiness and smiling.
Im just scared i will loose my true self and forget about it. So scared thats why i cant chill. And because i cant chill people dont believe me. This is a struggle for truth.. and i hope ill do the right thing for myself and the people around me. I want to be the first in my family to beat the fake.. if i do maybe they will pull after me.

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NARDIL (Phenelzine) 4 weeks in Hunk20 5/8/10
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mom put me in mental hospital Hunk20 6/12/10
Re: mom put me in mental hospital Hunk20 6/12/10
Re: mom put me in mental hospital » Hunk20 SLS 6/12/10
nardil and low dose lithium? Hunk20 6/12/10
Re: mom put me in mental hospital » Hunk20 Phillipa 6/12/10
Re: mom put me in mental hospital Hunk20 6/12/10
Re: mom put me in mental hospital » Hunk20 Phillipa 6/12/10
Re: mom put me in mental hospital violette 6/12/10
feed me with hope:) im hungry Hunk20 6/13/10
switch me from nardil to parnate Hunk20 6/13/10
Re: switch me from nardil to parnate » Hunk20 chujoe 6/13/10
leaving mental hospital against everybody Hunk20 6/13/10
what to do? Hunk20 6/13/10
Re: what to do? » Hunk20 Phillipa 6/13/10
Re: what to do? Hunk20 6/14/10
true self=inner child? Hunk20 6/14/10
Re: true self=inner child? » Hunk20 Phillipa 6/14/10
Re: true self=inner child? Hunk20 6/15/10
Re: true self=inner child? » Hunk20 SLS 6/15/10
Scott Hunk20 6/15/10
Re: switch me from nardil to parnate europerep 6/15/10
Safety Hunk20 6/15/10
Re: Safety violette 6/15/10
Re: Safety Phillipa 6/15/10
Re: Safety Hunk20 6/18/10
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