Posted by stargazer2 on June 6, 2010, at 20:24:33
In reply to Re: Best/Worst Mental Illness to have?? » stargazer2, posted by Roslynn on June 6, 2010, at 15:33:47
Yeah, I've been in the depths the last few months so things are much clearer to me lately and after 30 years the fight gets tiresome, one never knows how much longer to keep up the facade.
When you are in your 20 and 30's, my illness was still somewhat new and you think there are answers (meds) at least that is what everyone tells you. After 30 years, I'm not so sure there are answers just buying a few more years here and there and if you can't work or feel useful anymore, then why bother fighting...No one will really miss you if you are gone anyway.
I don't have kids so I have no obligations to anyone so that makes it easier. NO guilt for checking out, if that becomes the decision.
Meds are not always the answer as if they ever were...just a way to buy a few more years here and there. That's alot of time bike riding or shopping or searching for meaning.
As my mother has said many time...hell is here on earth and don't let anyone fool you into thinking otherwise.
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