Posted by vic80 on May 25, 2010, at 15:27:44
Lex was tapered down to zero from 20mg in 1.5 months.
Milnacipran was started 11 days ago> current dose 25mg x 24 days ago, for the first time I experienced this disturbing thought/vision of some very gory type, and it sort of petrified me. I didnt bother to dwell on it.
Next night while writing into my journal dealing with a particularly difficult issue - I experienced a vision of standing near a church and being attacked by a bandaged mummy. scared I was! But then it wasnt abnormal.
What started subsequently was reigniting of fears and phobias from my childhood which have long gotten over in my life - fear of the dark, scared there are monsters hiding in the hallway... definitely fears - NOT delusions or hallucinations.2 days on, just ANXITety, which has anyways doubled since I started in Milnacipran
Today evening for about an hour, while on a drive through a lovely terrain, we stopped over for a while.... I started to feel scared - scared of looking at the trees - the lights in the distance - the bells from the local church, the buzzing of a far away radio,the rustling of the leaves - innocent printed designs on my friend's tshirt looked like they had some deep ominous undertone - the gates of the buildings, everything seemed to scare me - I was paralyzed in fear - I thought I was going to turn psychotic. All along there were no hallucinations and delusions....
And then I felt a massive panic attack set in which I miraculously avoided somehow.But the experience has made me all most paralyzed. Now I know the pdoc would have to work through the details of what has happened etc etc...
I wonder if the lex withdrawal has set in... or the high NE from MIL is causing this somehow - anxiety has been bad - but what I experienced today was raw dread.
It seemed to wean off in a while, but the after effects have been a severe sense of foreboding...0.5 mg ativan seemed to calm me, but the overriding fear seems to have gotten stuck now..
Any comments? Is this anxiety or is it something more ominous????
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