Posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 2, 2009, at 12:10:44
In reply to Re: Parnate losing effectiveness. Why?? Help pleas » Girlnterrupted78, posted by floatingbridge on November 1, 2009, at 11:26:54
Well, I doubt my behavior would qualify as manic. The reason he said I had been "too good" at first is that I told him I had become very pleasant with people and could smile to strangers and even strike up conversations.
The weird part is that when that was taking place, he seemed to be happy for me. But once those feelings were replaced with a more flat, subdued, and less cheerful mood, that's when he said, "what you were feeling before was just "too good"" He said "too good" like if being too good was a bad thing.
Since I began trying different antidepressant treatment about 8 years ago, the only 3 states I've been able to experience have been either 1)very depressed, 2)somewhat depressed, or 3)very good (when the medication works.) He seems to not want me to be "very good" but rather just flat. No smiles to strangers, or whatever happiness I was feeling.
He said the same thing when I told him that even though Parnate was doing a great job, Celexa had been superior. He then said that when I was on Celexa, I had just been "too good". Again, with the connotation that being 'too good' was a negative thing. Now he claims that Parnate (when working great), compared to Parnet itself (but with less potent effects) was also 'too good'! How low is he going to go? Every time something works, it's just "too good"??!!!
When Parnate first started working, I asked him if he noticed any difference in my behavior, and he said 'of course'. He said I looked more alive, my face was more expressive, I was a lot more talkative, and I even joked around with him, whereas before I barely spoke and didn't even want to look at him.
Now that the effects began to diminish, I asked him again if he's seen a difference and he said I seemed more subdued.
So it seems that he thought the initial response was "too good" but now that I'm no longer lively or happy it's ok. No more smiles, jokes, or liveliness, just flatness seems to be what he'd call 'good enough'. This is horribly frustrating.
Thanks for your comments
> Hi GI78,
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> I don't know where your doc is coming from. Too good, like manic? When I first started AD, I, too felt like it was an extra skin (I couldn't have put it any better than you). My doc then thought that was great.
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> Yes, guess it is time to talk w/ your doc. I hope it goes well for you--and good for you for standing up for yourself!
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