Posted by cactus on October 1, 2009, at 1:06:35
I have to see a new pdoc in 3 weeks if I'm lucky to get in. I'm in a holding pattern of 200mg AM modafinil and 6mg of clonazepam. I'm functioning on auto pilot. I go to work, come home and stare at the wall. I don't even know how I'm able to work.
I have always had a very strong work ethic but it's fading, like me.
My body rejects anything that messes with serotonin and it's getting worse as I get older.
Any suggestions? C
Agomelatine and tianeptine are not available in Australia and I can't deal with the legal submission to obtain it from overseas. It takes forever. I will not purchase illegally from overseas.
I'm running out of options and I'm getting scared. I fully understand there is no magic bullet, but I need something to switch off invasive intrusive thoughts, that don't cause blurry vision at all (need to focus a camera) ,don't numb my emotions and are energising. I'm almost at that point again where I was 17 years ago and I don't wan't to go back on sickness benefits. Maybe I'm too proud for my own good.
Please help
AP's, TCA's and MAOI's are out too. I'm really lost and scared. The feelings of dissociation are returning and last time that happened it was very bad, leaving your body to escape sounds like a nice repose from depression and anxiety but it put me in hospital and nearly ended very badly. I have 2 wonderful GP's from the same clinic watching out for me but because of my history and bizarre reaction to meds they are very wary to prescribe any psych meds to me.
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