Posted by yxibow on August 13, 2009, at 9:49:15
In reply to Re: 2 pdoc's told me meds will not help me » yxibow, posted by deerock on August 12, 2009, at 11:07:22
> jay, i think youre going down the right path.
> the docs wont give me meds because even the ones that have helped have harmed me in some way.
I've been there.... and though I still have lingering feelings, it doesn't get me any further to go down a continuous antagonistic path -- it isn't going to make outcomes any better. Doesn't mean you can't express and work through those thoughts though.
even if its just because i say so. so they know not to go down the road because it likely wont end well.Well psychiatrists can't bring out their crystal ball (I'm not trying to be facetious)... and making false promises or ones that a patient might interpret as so, can create antagonism, and I've certainly been through it.
This doesn't mean that single "experiment" drug trials for say a month can't happen -- I have been doing this at times, but there isn't a lot left to change, or at least that we know of.
they also know i can function, though not well, so they feel that the therapist can work with it.
Well the idea there I assume is to get your functionality improved through psychodynamic/psychotherapy -- to help examine, in hopefully whatever manner helps you the best, to bolster your confidence and give you more hope.
> and i like what you said about trying something different. thats what im trying to do.
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> so how do you come to terms with your here and now? what has been working for you lately?
Well, I'm not the best example of my example I guess, because increasing symptoms or awareness of them or both has pushed me away from coming to terms with the Here and Now.
Its hard to suspend disbelief and attempt to pursue suggestions and things that I had tried harder in the past because I am looking 4 or 5 steps in the future instead of the present, which is equally hard to deal with.
But my case is a rare one, I don't know anyone with my disorder (which I have posted various descriptions of in the past), and its shifting changes --- very complex visual exaggerations of normal phenomenon (no, I never took any hallucinogens -- it just happened, literally overnight) and other symptoms.
But the point still stands -- while I'm in a rather low spot at the moment, I know rationally I have to take advantage of the support I have now to build the best future, and no, it isn't fair at all that this has been going on for years.
So what helps? Well, as I say, I'm stuck at a hard point right now, but when I'm able to socialize with people, it helps a lot -- it also hurts because I feel not on the same level, disconnected in a way, but it is definitely better than not doing it. And similar examples can be made.
-- Jay
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