Posted by bleauberry on April 14, 2009, at 15:55:46
In reply to Re: These Are Really Down Times For Me, posted by Zana on April 13, 2009, at 20:43:28
> God, what a shame you are having such a tough time. I know when I am really depressed I would do anything, anything to get out of it. And yes it is scarey to feel at the mercy of this beast inside you that turns the world so dark. I hope it is the antibiotic. I don't really have the whole picture but it sounds like you are being pretty inconsistant with your meds. I don't know much about MAOIs but don't you have to take them consistently for some period of time for them to work?
> I hope reaching out helps. Something will. Have hope if you can. Keep posting so we know what's going on with you.
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> ZanaWell, it's not inconsistent with meds, it is no meds. Except the antibiotic which was solidly consistent. In terms of psych meds I am very sensitive and have paradoxical reactions, so in the last year I have been testing the waters with different meds just to see what has potential for a trial. So far only only two have fit that bill. Milnacipran, Parnate. I am not on Parnate, but I did sample it, dipped my toes in the water, so to speak. If I can make it past a few days on a miniscule amount of some med, then it qualifies for a trial. Usually by that time they have me 10 times worse than I was. Milnacipran surprised me by going uphill instead of downhill, and Parnate too.
So anyway, not inconsistent. Just sampling things that I might want to be consistent with. Weeding out the losers. Granted this is not the typical way to approach things, but then, I am 15 years into this, have been well on other meds, have experienced poopout, have had ECT, have tried most meds, and am not tolerant of meds as I used to be. 9 out of 10 meds make me profoundly worse, so I am out to weed those out and focus on the promising ones. It only takes a few days for me to test one. If I go from medium depression to suicidal depression within 4 days on a new med, that med is done.
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