Posted by bleauberry on December 31, 2008, at 15:53:38
In reply to Re: Don't talk about suicide, posted by linkadge on December 30, 2008, at 20:43:48
Yeah I hear ya Link. I know all too well how you feel. I was so darn sensitive to prozac I had to start at 1mg for a few days, then 2mg for a few days, it took me 2 weeks to get up to 5mg. Agitation and insomnia were. Zyprexa helped that a ton. But still, I do understand exactly.
When you say you've tried everything, well, what haven't you tried? Do you, or did you, have amalgam fillings in your teeth? Do you have unexplained pain and fatigue? I mean, maybe we're only looking here at a symptom of something else? Your symptoms seem to fit very detailed exact descriptions of what people feel with other diseases, somewhat different than what we normally call depression. And that might explain why depression meds are so treacherous for you? Just a thought.
> Thats the problem. I only took about 5mg of prozac and I practically didn't sleep for 2 nights. I was also agitated out of my mind. The medication just feels so toxic.
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> I think there are certain subtypes of depression that just fair very poorly with current treatments.
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> I need something that will help me get normal sleep. Something that doesn't worsen my anxiety. Something thats not going to make me apathetic.
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> I'm not so much 'sad' its just that I feel an incredable emptiness and feeling like there is no point to being alive. I'm very anxious and unsettled. It's like I am always feeling like something is 'wrong'. I have problems sleeping and staying asleep. I'm constantly having nightmares.
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> Prozac just makes things so much worse. It makes me more anxious and makes my sleep worse. I also eat less on it.
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> The big problem is that because I've been on 'everything', I just say that the prozac is helping. I realize this isn't going to help me. If I say the medications aren't working they he is going to start prescribing harder combos that I really don't want to get into again. At least this way I can keep my foot in the door with psychiatry.
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> Anyhow, I just keep reaching dead ends. We need new treatments.
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