Posted by iforgotmypassword on November 14, 2008, at 3:34:35
In reply to persistent SSRI withdrawal symptoms - prognosis?, posted by Felix Guattari on November 13, 2008, at 22:44:59
i react a lot to your use of "tardive akathisia" to describe. but i may be way off base. may be better that way, my life has never recovered despite so much effort, but in case otherwise, you may have better cog. ability still with you and hopefully more access to health care practitioners who actually problem solve.
i was dx'd w/ aspergers and add as a kid, later in teens went on paxil. started to have wierd akathisia, feelings of urgence, irrationality pacing, and rage, arm and facial twitches, and noticible shivering that developed into the constant chewing/shuffling i cannot stop doing with my teeth today. my symptoms now are becoming blatantly parkinsonian, with stiffness in my physical as much as my mental paralysis now. my benefits from lorazepam do not sustain, but these types of drugs have been the most benefit. though akathitic overdriving anxiety putting screwball sensations into my nerves and creating paradoxical hyperactivity is a huge see-saw factor i have, but not just see-saw the effects are usually both affecting me. result is my nonsensical, uncontrollable person. i am just my nerves. not just to articulate, to even finish thoughts properly is very difficult. my intuitive personality is completely warped. the anhedonia and avolition have developed into complete lack of feeling natural, artistic, capable of inspiration, any creative or productive ability to use language spontaneously, and to feel even slightly normal around people. again i am completely dependant on lorazepam. i think my decline, which is now again accelerating, i ironically i saw as depressive initially in my teens and i ended up on SSRIs, it is likely more a very parkinsonian decline, if not, another type of severe extrapyramidal disability that makes no sense manifesting in a 24 year old.
none of this likely helps, and is pessimistic, and my symptoms keep going on and on, but most are very easily conceived as relating to dopaminergic failure in the brain. which may relate to your symptomology, and not necesarily condemn you to disability. even though none helped in any complete way, and any major improvements to my functioning were short lived, i will list drugs i have taken that have helped:
-lorazepam
-burpopion (wellbutrin SR brand, unsure about generic, have tried, but not the hated "budeprion" by teva; by the time i tried it, i may simply have lost effect from the base chemical totally, i have never benefitted as much from the chemical as when i took wellbutrin SR initially at 18, and it stopped working after a few months)
-lamotrigine (short lived, as in days, but the effect comes back to a degree after abstinence or dosage increase, like lorazepam; this rule has helped less and less over years)
-desipramine felt more on top of things, and and more mature less jittery and overdriven around people, cut oversleeping and overeating dramatically, stopped working after a year, may be the most carcinogenic and genotoxic antidepressant, tangent: not just *cancer* from mutagenic chemicals, but negative effects of chemicals and drugs on the genetic material children can end up with (from the cells of BOTH sexes) i imagine is a much bigger issue than is ever mentioned in our society, i should have tried to put all i collected on this when i tried to start a thread on genotoxicity before, it was not at all far fetched seeming at all. humans need to be careful with these drugs, likely obvioulsly part of the greater need for us to be more careful with chemicals and technology in general.
-atomoxetine strattera was just noticable, because i felt i was regaining ability to grasp and see my complete visual field, rather than a blur; i.e. fleeting cognitive and hedonic benefit, but no executive functioning benefit
-donepezil, may have helped thought and fluency, was too expensive to confirm when benefits on my life were negligablestimulants very unreliable with me, at least is the case with dextroamphetamine and methylphenidate
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