Posted by Fivefires on May 16, 2008, at 4:49:05
In reply to Re: NARDIL DAY 1. KNEW WOULD LOSE SELF, posted by Simon79 on May 15, 2008, at 16:46:05
Hey all ... things are strange.
Files are all moved around in my pute. Cell phone isn't ringing and incoming text messages were locked. This occurred just after 'I really got angry w/ some FOO'; one works in pute/phones/communications. Can sum1 hack a cell?
I rec'd like 5-6 text messages, but was sending one at same time, so finished it, and then when went back to read them, they were all locked! Below will explain why another person also saw them, so you all know I wasn't 'imagining this'.
Last night someone stole a beautiful pot and plant I'd had for like 15yrs out front. I reported it to an officer today. When he was here, I told him about PC and cell. I showed him my text message inbox w/ all these locked messages and he said 'wow I've never seen anything like that before'.
Later, I was talkin' w/ someone on the phone and telling them about it, got cell out, opened to text messages, and there they were all 'unlocked'.
I'm scared to go to sleep because I might stop breathing. I have no appetite. Body aches. Thirsty. I'm a zombie.
My pdoc (He called only because county next to me called on my behalf saying I should be seen by my doctor immediately and then move over there way asap.) said 'U don't meet the criteria for inpatient medication stabilization.' Then, he said, 'I don't know what I can do to help you'(?) So is he saying I'm a hopeless case? Is he saying he can't help me and assuming no one else can help me? Is he saying he can't help me and I can't go inpatient because he has a godplex and wouldn't want someone else to?
I would think, if he thinks, he can't help me, he'd want me inpatient!
I AM COMPLETELY UPSET AND ALONE AND ANGRY AND IMMENSELY CONFUSED. DO I JUST NOT MATTER AT ALL?
Am I doing something wrong?
I told a woman on the nurseline I couldn't get up and fix food. And she said, 'So! Lots of people can't'.
I'M NOT CLEAR ABOUT THESE REACTION BY MEDICAL PERSONNEL, TO MY REQUEST FOR HELP, EVERYWHERE I AM TURNING!
DO THEY THINK I'M TOO ILL OR NOT ILL ENOUGH OR WHAT?
The most empathy I've received these past (Is this day 2? Yeah.) ... hours ... is from my insurance company, of all places!
All are saying stuff like 'I'm needy and I shouldn't be'; pdoc office, nurse line, FOO, friend.
And, there are no beds unless I want to die, kill, or am psychotic.
But, now, if my pdoc says, as above, I don't meet criteria for inpatient; I dunno .. can he keep me from getting help? He's county. My insurance is different and allows me inpatient w/ a co-pay, if there's a bed for someone who wishes to live. (They must be really short on these here!)
Can pdoc mess this up for me, I mean if by some miracle it happens? Who should I call to ask? I feel I need to have someone around me.
I'm still scared to sleep. I'm just plain scared to be alone too. I wish someone was here!!!!!!!
Tks all. Had stay off all day cuz of stuff up at top there, and then too, kinda' worried about all my files being moved around in folders here.
Pls use babble feature if insight about hacking.
5f
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