Posted by oldschool305 on January 14, 2008, at 23:58:38
In reply to Re: My Anxiety is so Bad..Can anyone Relate to thi » garyengelm, posted by Phoenix1 on January 14, 2008, at 19:19:04
Yah, I would say my anxiety gets as bad as yours sometimes heh. It's horrible, it controls our lives =( I'm having problems holding a job because of it. Quit a pretty decent job today, I only had for a week. I was working for American Express as a Travel Consultant with excellent benefits. I am starting to think that Customer Service is not a good job for someone with anxiety/panic disorder hehe. My anxiety is horrible, I can't sleep at night. I don't have insurance so it's hard to get on the proper meds so I am on a small dose of Lexapro still. Long story short, I NEVER FEEL GOOD. I constantly feel nervous, shaky, feel like screaming, dying, constantly laying in bed. Live at home with mom and need to start helping out around here but I can't. I can't hold onto a damn job. I hate working, I really do. But only because I never feel good. It's hard to be around 100-150 ppl when you're having anxiety from hell. It's hard to smile, and act professional when you feel like crap. It's hard to talk on the phone and function. It's just impossible for me anymore. I love my bed, I love to be alone. I love to avoid the world unless I absolutely MUST go outdoors. Complete 180 from who I was 6 years ago. I was so outgoing and energetic. That is me no longer. I'm now a lazy fat 27 year old with no goals, no ambition, no motivation, no drive, nothing. All thanks to anxiety and depression.
Now I do have some Zypreza sitting in my closet but never tried it because I am already fat. But if it helps get my life back on track.... It might be worth getting a bit fatter. Not like i've had a boyfriend in years anyways. pssh.
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