Posted by Racer on January 5, 2008, at 2:19:57
In reply to Im numb again....., posted by your#1fan on January 2, 2008, at 19:52:05
> Here we go again. No emotion, no intrest. I hate it when i get like this. I've drink coffee maybe to pep, im just irrtible.
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> Ughhhhh i hate this nasty numb, feels like my brain is just a still pond. Nothing, no waves, or anything. You know i'll just be like this and never say anything during socials. I hate it. I would rather feel some emotion, like motivation to do things. Im serious, its like my nuerotransmitters are just flouting dead in the water. Cant take L-tyrosine, that will just make me irritible and insomniac.
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> Life is so dull........right now. Give me some ECT get these lazy nuerons a sting! you know i wonder what a homemade one would feel like?
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> dulled fanI'm curious about a couple of things: how long has this been going on? When did it start?
And please don't take this the wrong way, but I'm curious about something else: is it possible that you're bored, rather than in a relapse? Your posts suggest that you may react to transient states by assessing them to be different disorders. Sometimes feeling flat and unenthusiastic isn't depression, but merely non-pathological boredom.
Today it's storming here -- heavy rain, heavy winds, it's dark out all day, and I felt like hibernating. Some of that, in my case, is depression, since my current medication trial seems to be a bust. Some of that, though, is that sometimes it's hard for ANYONE in this weather to feel motivated and energetic! I'm assuming you're on break from school right now, and probably don't have a lot of structure in your daily life at the moment. That can lead to boredom, which really is different from depression, or even from emotional blunting.
Just a couple of thoughts that came out of my head when I read this. I hope they give you something to consider.
poster:Racer
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