Posted by Jedi on May 25, 2007, at 3:23:49
In reply to I am very depressed please will you help, posted by rjlockhart on May 24, 2007, at 21:55:56
RJ,
I played the same game you did for about 25 years. It is called dysthymia(low level chronic depression). Mine was atypical as I had low levels of energy, oversleeping, social withdrawl and shyness. In my field of expertise I would succeed but outside of that, I was usually is the "Black Hole" My favorite saying was "fake it till you make it". I was very sucessfull but the depression and social anxiety were always there. I really pushed myself because somehow I knew the major depression was coming. It really runs in my family. I have had at least three first cousins and an uncle that have suicided.Anyway, when the major depression did hit, I was right on the verge of being financially independent. I owned and managed a million dollar per year networking and computer equipment company. I also owned and managed over fifty residential rentals. And had a new baby that relied on me. When I got really sick, something had to go; it wasn't my child! I made the biggest financial mistake of my life by selling my networking company to my best technical person. He had zero assets to back up a big mouth. I had hard money offers for the business but I had promised this guy that he would get the biggest piece. Well you guessed it, it less than two years he took a multi million dollar company to less than zero. He would manage the people by locking himself in his office and having them E-Mail him. I could have played the revenge card and sued him into bankruptsy, but that would not of helped me. Then on top of everything else, he took the best guys and started a new business. This really pissed me off, maybe I should have just sued him for spite. I'm venting a lot here and this was ten years ago. It should not even be part of my thought process at this time. But the point is, I was so close to being able to care for my wife and child, no matter what happened. Then one bad decision tossed this hard earned success out the window. Ok, I'm ranting.
Good Luck,
Jedi
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