Posted by Honore on April 30, 2007, at 10:22:11
In reply to Re: depression psychological, posted by peddidle on April 27, 2007, at 16:43:33
There are definitely reasons why we might be afraid of feeling better. My T thinks I'm afraid to. But I have reasons to be afraid-- mostly in the circumstances of my childhood (and adulthood, for that matter, since I reenact childhood scenarios now).
For one thing, if you have a parent who feels like a failure, or who has a sense of deprivation or loss, and who feels a lot of pain when someone else has something good, or accomplishes something good-- or feels good about themselves-- even if the parent is trying to support you overtly-- you can feel that your success or good sense of yourself is hurtful or destructive for your parent. In my case, at least, that's a huge factor in my resistance to and fear of feeling better. It's something that was always destructive of one of my parents' very fragile and unhappy sense of self. And that can be an incredibly important motive for a child-- to keep a parent afloat as best as possible--ie by making sure that you never have things-ie good feelings about yourself-- that cause the parent to feel bad about themselves.
That's one reason, but I'm sure there are others.
Honore
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