Posted by Jedi on April 26, 2007, at 2:44:25
In reply to depression and work, posted by jenny80 on April 23, 2007, at 17:03:09
> Just wondered how many of you have managed to stay in employment. I have been depressed for 10 years now, I'm 26 now and in a fulltime very stressful job. This is all getting too much however. Ive recently started nardil and am finding it so hard to keep going when I can hardly stand for falling asleep not to mention slurring my speech in front of colleagues. ...
Hi,
Well I'm pushing 50 and have been fighting major depression for the past ten years. Before that, for over 20 years, I fought through dysthymia and social anxiety. A speach in front of a large crowd was a terrifying experience. I always had a job but my favorite saying was "fake it till you make it". It sure takes a lot of energy to fake it all the time. Luckily, back then I was good at computer programming. So I could kind of escape into the machine. Meetings were always the worse. Trying to concentrate and understand technical details, when your head's about to split open is a real challenge.Later in my career I have been self employed, so at least when I'm really down I can escape. There is another side to this, however, when you are self employed you also have to be self motivated. This is very difficult when living with major depression. It is way too easy to put off a project until tomorrow when I may be feeling better. Of course, tomorrow is the same. I've been on MAOIs for most of the past ten years. They have saved my life, but it sure would be nice to live without them.
Good Luck,
Jedi
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