Posted by someday on March 10, 2007, at 2:12:05
Been suffering from GAD and SAD.
I went to a coffee shop with friends, and I had to order some coffees and donuts since I was going to buy them. Someone asked me to get regular coffee. I ordered it. The lady asked "One sugar, one cream?" I said "No, black, please" She seems suspicisous. One of my friends said "Regular means 1 sugar + 1 cream". Then, I started to panic. I didn't know what to do. Friends looked at me strangely at my blushed face. I'm so embarrassed and depressed. Depression and embarrassment always come to me when I experience this kind of situation. Before meeting friends, I took 0.5 Clonazepam. It usually works very well - at least it makes me go out of house.
How long do I have to live with this nightmare? Will I ever get normal like when I was young?
I've taken antidepressants and they do more harm than good. There are so many things I want to do when I'm not social phobic. I've had CBT sessions. It was complete waste of money. Now, I'm listening to a CBT tape. The doctor from the tape seems like to know more than the doctor from the failed CBT session. What he says reaches my heart.There is one method called, "Slow talk". It's basically talking a little slower than you usually do. I applied the same concept to my racing thought, and it helps.
I'm just writing this w/o any thought. Just typing as my fingers go. Will I ever get better and study what I want to study, and meet people I'd like to go out with? Can someone please please tell me something?
poster:someday
thread:739725
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