Posted by liliths on January 21, 2007, at 15:46:27
In reply to Re: Sick, sick, sick...and tired/liliths, posted by stargazer on January 21, 2007, at 15:33:44
oh stargazer.. it may not mean very much right now, but your suffering touches mine so profoundly
I understand EXACTLY what you're saying. I feel the very same way... it hurts endlessly. Every day feels that much more diminished as I watch life simply pass without me
If you're anything like me, it doesn't help to know others hurt... but hopefully it helps to know others understand.. you're not alone
namaste,
lilith> Thank you liliths...Those are some of the options I will explore when i see my pdoc on Wed.
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> I took Celexa, Wellbutrin and Adderall for about 4 years and did not write in my diary which meant I was feeling OK. I was able to work for this time although I did remember quite a bit of difficulty in my job, which has always been a problem of mine. But I must not have had the kind of difficulties that usually has made me want to change meds.
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> What happens to me while working with depression is the depression gets worse and fails to improve as meds are adjusted, while working. I end up quitting the job because the symptoms of depression are so incapacitating. My belief is that if I continue to work I will end up with cancer due to the stress. So I convince myself to quit and then I try to get my meds straightened out which almost never happens within a reasonable period of time.
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> This pattern is well established for me and has not allowed me to ever achieve a stable work history, so when I find myself in this situation again, I am devastated.
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> Instead of being able to accept this, I am continually reminded of lost opportunities and failed dreams. I have some hope for now, but with each relapse, that hope diminishes.
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> I've said too much already...thanks for your support, it means alot...SG
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