Posted by Reggie BoStar on January 19, 2007, at 2:29:13
Hi Everyone,
Not only do anti-depressants not work for me - now even hormone therapy has failed. They tried Testosterone on me, in the theory that my abnormally low levels were contributing to my lack of motivation, and perhaps, severe depression.
I took the stuff for almost three weeks, and did start noticing more energy and slightly less despair.
Then my urethra started clamping shut. This happened to me once before in response to medication, so I at least had some idea what was causing it. Then I did more reading on the Testosterone supplement I was taking, and sure enough - paruresis (inability to urinate) and BHP (Benign prostate enlargement) are some of the "More rare" side effects.
My MD has agreed. So now testosterone is going the way of all the AD's that don't work, leaving me with abnormally low levels again.
This had gotten ridiculous 10 years ago when the name-brand SSRI's baled on me (Prozac, Zoloft, Paxil). Since then I've tried the new SSRIs, SNRIs, tricyclics, and even ECT. I had to draw the line with MAOIs because they're just plain too dangerous.
This leaves me with nothing. I'm 56 and can't imagine living much longer this way. In fact I'd rather not, but I'm too afraid of dying. Not death, dying. It rules out suicide but leaves me with just this existence.
I'm starting to think that I should just keep getting ECT until my memory and other cognitive functions start to go. I've got nothing to lose now.
poster:Reggie BoStar
thread:723932
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