Posted by Racer on July 2, 2006, at 0:17:59
In reply to Rumination-----, posted by snapper on July 1, 2006, at 4:23:13
Hey! When you look in the mirror, do you see me?
Seriously, though, I'm just now finding some relief from my own negative ruminations. It's kinda sorta miraculous, really, and surprisingly I just noticed today that it's much better! Just suddenly noticed that I didn't feel nauseous, and frightened, and generally miserable, and tried to figure out what was different. Oh. Yeah. None of the horrible negative ruminations! Whoohoo!
Now, it's not perfect, there are some still there, but not nearly as intrusive, and they're bringing only about half the shame and fear with them now.
I think it's the Buspar kicking in, and I'm pleased about it. Benzos never helped me, and often made me MORE franticly anxious. This is a very friendly drug for me, it's working (after about four weeks now, I think?) and only having one very slight side effect for me, which is sleepiness. There is a down side -- with the anxiety coming under control, the depression is much more apparent -- but this is so much better than it was! If you haven't tried Buspar, it might be worth a shot.
Otherwise, what has helped you in the past? If you haven't tried some of the SSRIs, it's worth giving them a fair shot.
Also, truly, therapy is going to do some good, too. And maybe discussing with an attorney whether your current disabling mental health issues might protect you from the legal troubles. It may not, but it's still worth asking. (If need be, you could also apply for disability. It would show that you're not just making up an excuse.)
Good luck, and I hope that helps.
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