Posted by puravida on June 20, 2006, at 23:37:28
Hi all,
I used to post here a lot - it has helped me a lot. I've spent the past few years self-medicating w/ wine and sometimes food, and finally stopped the booze 5 months ago. I mean, completely. Since then I have been trying to shake the depression I seem to always have a bit of, but things are actually seeming worse lately. I've been doing everything I can w/natural/alternative stuff, but it only lasts a day or two - I can't seem to get all the balls in the air again/still.
I have asked my doc, casually, 3x since Feb if he things I need an adjustment on my meds. He did up my Prozac from 10 to 20, but that hasn't helped. He just says "stay sober and exercise". Well, besides staying sober and going to work, I am not doing much more in the way of self care, and it is getting harder and harder. Two weeks ago I saw him again and was more hopeful he would make a change, but no. My binging is really, really bad, plus I can tell I am not right, and am dabling with drinking just to try to feel "normal". I guess he thinks that if I can get to work I am not bad off enough.
I have been on meds over 10 yrs now, and have had times of very good mental and physical health - as well as bad, of course. Now I am on Wellbutrin SR 200 am and 200 afternoon, and 20 mg Prozac. This is the 3rd time for Prozac and 2nd for WB. Come to think of it, toward the end of the last time on Wellbutrin, I had a lot of problems w/ binging on whatever I could find.
So, I am drinking as I type, hoping to maybe feel confident and alive for a bit. Of maybe it's a "look!" to my PD. I know its not the long term answer, and really hope the result of this night is that my meds get adjusted and I stay off the wine from here on out.
Anyhow, can anyone give me some perspective, cuz I'm too busy trying to keep all my balls from rolling downhill, much less juggle them. Since the increas in Prozac didn't work - does that maybe mean it pooped, and another increase won't work? Should I ask to try another one of the newer AD's? Oh - I have also been taking 600 SAMe, aminos, fish oil, you name it, as often as I can remember. But like exercise, I think I am basically hopeless that anything will work (cuz it doesn't seem to be) so I don't stay on it for long. But I am religous about the prescription meds.
Anyhow, sorry this is so long. I would really appreciate your helping remember what I am supposed to do when I am in this state.
puravida
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