Posted by jealibeanz on June 10, 2006, at 19:36:34
In reply to Re: Doctor Tomorrow!!!, posted by Phillipa on June 9, 2006, at 22:05:27
I just got Xanax... too difficult to mention the depression. My doc is the most positive person I've ever met. He was asking me about Physician Assistant school, which I enjoy, and was sooo excited for me!!! Although I have a history of depression, it would have been a 180 in the conversation. It's taken me months to get the courage to go for anxiety. At least I know that's treatable with the Xanax.
The depression? Well... I'm not entirely comfortable with saying, "I'm depressed, but I don't want to take the drugs you're going to give me, so pretend you didn't hear that." That could very well happen. I don't want to suggest EMSAM because he may be afraid of it since it's new. Although MAOI's are thought of are "dangerous" I bet he'd be willing to give me something like Nardil since he would trust me to adhear to restrictions and monitor my health. I of course wouldn't want Nardil because it's known to cause weight gain.
He was very willing to give me the Xanax and happy that it was helping, saying that it was the lowest dosage and that it could go up if necessary. He was hopeful that maybe I could one day go off it! Yayy!!! Hahaha... I cheerfully agreed.. while in my head I was thinking hellll no... not any time soon at least!
He said there was no reason for me to drive the 3 hours from school every month and that I could call for refills. So, I don't have a recheck appointment or anything. At least I do have my Xanax though, and I can probably ask to increase a little. Right now I have 3x .25 mg. He's right. That barely gets me by. But it does get me by.
I'm happy that I have such a caring and understanding doctor. My only concern is, and always has been, that my depressions are recurrent. Sure, I can get through this. But it will always come back. Most likely once a year or so. The Xanax allows me to cover it up with a huge happy attitude and big smile. But it doesn't cover up the urge to cry for no reason...
P.S. Did you know that 10% of Americans are on antidepressants? I was pretty shocked at that number. Good to know I'm not alone in this battle.
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