Posted by willyee on May 7, 2006, at 1:06:05
In reply to Re: Has this ever worked? » willyee, posted by Phillipa on May 6, 2006, at 23:08:55
No trust me i have no intention on messing with my Hormones i promise you.In fact i never took melatoion cause i dident like the sound of its profile.
I am just curious why its mentioned so much as a ordinary drug augmentor along with other common ones.And i know you mean well,but trust me id rather not expierment,but the same as if a man were on fire,would he wait around for the firemen to come and put him out correctly and safetly or will he do what comes naturaly and seek relieaf on instant.
I no longer can wake up and just lay around and accept my situation as i did for over 5 years,waiting weeks and laying my entire relieaf on a 15 min appt. that most times went terrably.
Trust me i promise u i did that,when i was on ssris i dident know a single chemical,or ever come to a single website,i laid around and suffered for 2-3 wweks to my appt.
Now its basicaly the same only i no longer want to just wait,either way i usualy get the same results,truth is fighting it on my own as well is the only times i get some success and relieaf,thinking back if i had always relied on docs id be on a gram of depakote and nearly sucidal.As much as i hate to say this,i truly from my soul believe my life isnt worth living on for another possable 30 years like this,do i wanna suffer every min of the day for another 30 years?
So honestly thinking like that and understanding this is becommig more and more of a scary reality i really understand and accept the risk that changing drugs the way i do can very well be fatal,but honestly its really all the professionals do anyway,just at a more snails rate and most cause they have insurance to worry about.
Im in a war whether i accept it or not,and like any war the only way you can even concieve winning is to head to the front line and take the chance of dying cause of it.If you play it safe and stay in the back and never take the hard risk can u really overcome an enemy.
I know its silly,and dramatic,but its really how i think,this has to be some type of demon or monster im up aganist and with all sincerity and clear thinking i say that every morning i feel as if im entering a battle zone,lol laugh but i do.
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