Posted by deniseuk on March 21, 2006, at 5:34:45
In reply to Re: I want to try ECT Again » deniseuk, posted by SLS on March 14, 2006, at 15:34:40
Hi Scott,
I'm sure people on this board must get sick of me whining on about how bad I feel and yet I won't take a drug that helps me. I guess I can't be that bad. I just get so scared that one day I'll be in that awful depressed state and there will be nothing to cling on to. I'm more scared of depression now than death itself.
Anyway, this is what I've been on so far:-
Aged 17 – 23 Low grade depression with a lot of physical symptoms. No Medication
Aged 24 - 28 Started taking Dothiapen 75mg (Tryciclic), worked wonderfully and after 24 hours of first ever taking it.
28 - 31 Dothiapin seemed to stop working so switched to 20mg of Seroxat, again worked great within about 3 days. Felt like a very strong drug. Came off it although it was still working really well when I stopped taking it.
31 - 35 Depression free and medication free.
35 Depression came back this time with more agitation and with a lot of suicidal feelings.
35 to present day:-
Seroxat 20mg – approx 4 weeks
Response – Suicidal. Severe agitation, felt awful, felt like I was outside myself, initially pacing up and down. No lifting of depression.
Remeron 15mg – Approx 4 weeks.
Response – Suicidal. As above, but this time with an appetite and better sleep. Very agitated at times. No lifting of depression.
Prothaiden (Pushed dose right up to max dose) and added Prozac. (Over a month)
Response – after pushing the dose of prothaiden and prozac to max, had a seizure.Prozac and lithium (Over 1 month) No response.
April 20th to June 25th 2002 -100mg of Effexor.
Response – Not so agitated, eat more and sleep more but still depressed.50mg Sertraline plus 50Mg Lamictal.
Response – Not so agitated but still feel depressed.
June 14th to to November 14th November
50 mg of Lamictal.
Response – No side effects. No response that I am aware of. Crying more.
14th November to 29th November
100 mg of Lamictal.
Response – As above.
29th November to 13 December
150 mg of Lamictal
Response – As above.
13th December to around February 2003
200 mg of Lamictal.
Response – As above.
Worse always around the time of my period.
Also tried tegretol for a short period of time.
February 2003
Tried phenelzine for about a month. Felt like I was in a trance on it.
March 2003
40mg of Seroxat after about 4 days on it felt my depression start to lift a bit, started going out again, socialising and performing better at work. Even went on holiday to Goa.
December 2004 - Current Day
Seroxat seemed to stop working around Christmas, tried coming off it going on Nardil and switching back to Seroxat again to no avail.
01/11/05 – 40mg of Seroxat and 200mg of Tegretol (took for two weeks) - No response just more tired.16/11/05 40mg of Seroxat and 15mg of Buspar (took for three weeks) - No response just more tired.
12/12 – Added 20mg of T3 to my Seroxat 40mg.
10/01 – Stopped T3, reduced Seroxat to 20mg and added 15mg of Mirtazapine. - More anxiety, felt worse.
Zyprexa always helps, my Godsend drug but only at 10mg.
I sometimes now add 30mg of Mirtazapine (as have some left over from previous trial) to my 40mg of Seroxat and this helps for a couple of days.
Kind Regards....Denise
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