Posted by Racer on January 27, 2006, at 13:05:49
In reply to Re: Feeling paralysed, and thinking of stopping meds » Racer, posted by ClearSkies on January 27, 2006, at 6:17:13
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> I also know that the cost of an initial consultation with yet another pdoc is an obstacle... but you are SO worth the investment.Actually, that's my excuse, not my reason. My reason is that I just don't have any confidence at this point that another doctor would make any difference at all. With that feeling being so strong, what's the point of going from doctor to doctor trying to find one? And, of course, I can't believe right now that ANY medication is going to make things better. I'm still in that place of believing that all the other medications I've tried are too horrible to bother trying again, you know?
That's the really hard part: I *know* that I have responded better to antidepressants in the past, that the way I'm feeling is the depression as much as the triggers involved for me. Even knowing that, I can't remember -- emotionally -- that I ever felt well enough on antidepressants to be worth the adverse effects thay had for me. At the time, maybe I didn't feel that way? I can't remember that. I just remember feeling deadened.
So, I'm too depressed to believe that antidepressants can help me? And the thing with the doctors is just about not wanting to go through that again only in order to feel as lousy as I have on the other meds. Does that make sense?
Clear as mud, huh?
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