Posted by fiftylager on January 26, 2006, at 8:37:26
In reply to New here and desperately looking for advice..., posted by fiftylager on January 25, 2006, at 22:13:48
Hi! Thank-you so much for your replies. It is nice to know that we are not alone.
As for the zoloft, I don't know. My reaction to celexa was pretty scary and I have been so scared to try anything since then. I felt like I was dying and panicking the worst I have ever panicked. Like I said, I tried the Wellbutrin when I got desperate enough and though not as severe a reaction, I still couldn't handle it. I'd be happy to take a benzo daily to relieve the symptoms but as most of you know, dr's don't like that much.
I don't really have any choice about my doctor. We have a severe dr shortage here and it took me 6 months to get into my current doctor. I was a little ticked she prescribed the wellbutrin when I read it was so activating.
I don't think my dr. would prescribe Nardil because many dr's don't like to prescribe Maoi's. She is only a gp so she is cautious. She'd love to give me the effexor however, I am too scared. I really feel at the end of my rope some days. I wish the buspar was more effective because I have tolerated it fairly well at a low dose (20 mg).
My dad tells me oh just get valium it's only a muscle relaxant and I've taken it for years. My dr. did prescribe the lorazepam but she won't do it on a regular basis. I have to make it last in order to prove I'm not addicted, lol. The worst is that it is effective but when your anxiety is really peaking and you take one, you have to wait for it to take effect. Quite honestly, I could care less if I were addicted as long as I didn't have anxiety.
I have tried deep breathing exercises, but I find focusing on my breathing almost makes it worse. I've read so many articles and done so much research but I feel like it's almost hopeless in beating this. I take fish oil and a vitamine B stress tablet but I don't think it does too much.
I would love to get some exercise in but I have no energy and it's hard to walk in 6 ft of snow, lol. I will also start exercising and just loose the drive to continue. I exercise more in the summer however with swimming, walking, gardening, etc.
I know I sound depressed and I probably am. I just have difficulty realizing it because I went through a very serious depression as a teenager and this isn't quite the same.
One counsellor I saw at age 15 thought I may be manic-depressive but my sessions were cut short. I was put on prozac but I became more depressed. I used to feel very hopeless and sad and would get a though in my head (like harming myself) and couldn't get it out. Then I would be super hyper and act innapropriatly. I occasionally still get hyper but not quite as remarkably. I mostly just have anxiety all the time. Once in awhile I will get this great feeling of calm, happiness and contentment but it is brief, like an hour or so and then I'm back to anxious and helpless.
I am very dependant on my husband because I don't feel capable of doing things and I feel scared all the time. Sometimes I won't answer the phone because I always have this feeling of dread.
I know I am such a headcase but I'm trying to find answers and want to feel normal. I feel like such a burden to my husband and am scared he'll wise up and leave me. I also have no sex drive which doesn't help our relationship. He is a good husband but he must get fed up with my fears, I'm sure. Oh well, I've written a novel again. Thank-you all for listening.
Crissi
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