Posted by Colleen D. on January 4, 2006, at 18:31:19
In reply to Thank you. » med_empowered, posted by Racer on January 4, 2006, at 14:07:36
I really understand your wanting a child. I had the same feelings when I was 33 and got married to the person who I thought was my soulmate. (I know better than that now, unfortunately.) I knew there was something wrong with my head, but hadn't pursued treatment yet. My husband kept saying he wasn't ready to start a family and I felt like my time was running out. Then I got pregnant and we lost our first little girl for reasons I still don't understand. Then came Matthew, and I thought I was being punished by God for something I had done because he was not the "perfect" child I had always wanted. Then the need to give him a sibling almost overwhelmed me and I felt myself teetering on the brink of insanity...so I did the injections even though I was not mentally WELL and along came Allison who is so sweet and wonderful (most of the time) that I know she will help take care of Matthew when I'm gone. Then Bridget came along too and surprised me, but I thought maybe God knew Matthew needed two sisters for some reason.
Anyway, I hope your dream comes true very soon. PG may not be easy, but the outcome can be wonderful. When I took Clomid the PMS was horrendous and my anxiety was through the roof. I just think that it's not the best thing to help you get the child you want, especially when your age is one of your main concerns. If this cycle does not work out, PLEASE look into other drugs for ovulation induction. It's the best thing I did for myself. On my second cycle of Repronex, BAM, all the tests showed a strong healthy pregnancy, and that was soooo comforting. It was 4 days after 9-11 that I found out I was PG with Allison and I turned 40 that December.
Best wishes and lots of hugs,
Colleen
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