Posted by overtheedge on November 24, 2005, at 15:57:41
In reply to Re: wellbutrin and seizures...Racer » overtheedge, posted by Racer on November 24, 2005, at 15:04:47
> > > Racer, for my AN, as you like to call it i like to call it skinny..lol lets see i was put in the hosp against will, in sept refeed, with ensure for 1 1/2 weeks then went on full trays. came home lost it all, see the thing is you need to want to get better....not forced to.BUT there is always a BUT, i do see a ED specialist, bc i am scared if i lose to much husband will take the kids from me, and a pdoc, and now i am on lamictal75 still raising the dose, and topamax, now don't yell, i freaked when i went to 3 digits, so i was able to convince him to give me a script, i know not a good idea....but i need to get back on track, they screwed with me at the hosp, when you refeed someone the hunger comes back and if you are not ready for it it is scary as hell.....ok mso enough of that and i hope there was nothing triggering there for you.if there was please tell me i will delete.i take klonapin 4 mg a day, lets see anything else, oh i see my reg dr everyother week for a weigh in....and the usual an stuff. but now i can go every 3 weeks if i maintain a certain weight. so thats my story......hope it wasn't to long.....i can just ramble.
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> > Wanted to add, good for you for getting the help. it must be very hard, but at the same time rewarding.....you must be proud of yourself....
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> Oh, la! Not proud at all, and sticking to my meal plan still feels like punishment and failure. I am trying, some days, though -- largely from wanting to make a baby...
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> The AN rather than 'ana' is just what I said -- "ana" sounds like a cuddly little cutie, you know? Something you might call a stuffed animal...
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> And I know what you mean about not being able to handle having the hunger thing happen. Even though I voluntarily started treatment, it still freaks me out -- after all those years of hunger being my friend, now it's my enemy. Now it nags at me, so that I can't ignore it the way I used to. It is hard to make that adjustment.
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> I guess I can't say anything you don't already know about the whole thing, but at least you know you're not alone, right?
>FUNNY, i feel so alone..... can i ask you, well let me put it like this, i do not like myself, i would say espically today being thanksgiving i hate myself.....i like alone , i like isolation,i like the thoughts going through my head, but then they get to be to much, and won't stop.....
but for you you will have a baby to look forward to, maybe 2..lol then come and talk to me.....talk about meds then.....
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